Thursday, December 31, 2015

2015

I read a post that a friend had written about her defining moments in 2015, which got me to thinking what were mine?

1) Learning that birthdays weren't everything - I didn't have the best of birthdays this year and it hit me hard because I always hype this up to being a spectacular, amazing thing, but it's okay if it's not. It doesn't mean that I am not loved or wanted or that anything has changed if there is a bad day in a year. It's literally just the marking of time.

2) Out of sight, out of mind is NOT true - This year, I moved back in with my mum and pretty much took a massive step back from my social life. It helped me figure out who I am and who I want in my life. I am extremely grateful to where I am today and who I have in it. We may not talk everyday but I know my people and they know me!

3) Vegas! - This was definitely eye opening. After all that hype, after I've wanted to go there since I was 21, all the glitz, glamour and moviedom, I can honestly say that it is NOT my kind of place and I really would be quite glad if I never have to go back there again. I had fun, yes, but that was only, only because of the company I had!  I was also introduced to the most crowded club I have ever seen in my whole life!

5) Family - This year helped me realise how much I value my family and that I wouldn't trade it for the world. It helped me shape some life choices that I am happy about. I got the chance to hang out with my cousins and my aunt and uncle in the US and I absolutely loved it. The highlight honestly though was Ginger. I'm not gonna lie. I also moved back home and got a chance to spend actual quality time with my mum and grandparents, which I hadn't done in a really long while.

6) My grandfather - I lost the only stable male influence in my life this year. I am so grateful for his presence. He filled in a missing part so well, I cannot remember ever going to bed feeling jealous of kids who had a dad or missing one. I remember he had a mustache and I hated it. I wouldn't let him near me one day and he has been clean shaven since. He taught me to climb trees, pick shells, learn to love the outdoors and gave me my love for life in itself. He gave me my first sip of beer and watched helplessly as I flailed around trying to learn Kannada. I can truly say that I have been loved, unconditionally, no matter what I did. I will always miss him and always be thankful that I got to be raised by him!

7) My career - I finally feel like I have taken the right steps in my career this year. I am now learning, struggling but moving progressively forward and I have a plan. This plan will work with sheer determination and hard work and I am SO excited for the next year and what 2016 will bring.

This year has been more stable than the years in the past and I am super happy about that! I think it's been a great year to build a base for what I want to do, what I want from life and who I want to be. I look forward to what 2016 has to offer! Happy New Year guys! May your year be awesome!