This is basically a rant and some self counseling about being positive!
Of late, there has been so much negativity going around, with so many people harping on the misfortunes that life hands them. It's so easy to fall into that trap and I've seen myself doing so, worrying about things that aren't working out, blaming people, cribbing and bitching and I've realised that I've missed out on being happy about the MANY good things in my life!
The other day, I visited my dog Gypsy at the cemetery and I wanted to scream and cry at life because she isn't in mine anymore and that it just wasn't fair. I became depressed and was in such a funk, trying to be cheerful and not go to my room and just hug my stuffed monkey and sulk. Yesterday, I spoke to my aunt about her and I realised that though she was sick, she passed away before she could feel any pain. She lived a happy life and was at her doggiest best when she left and I need to be happy that someone I loved so much went through life with maybe the regret of "I wish I had more Kaju Katli!" She is brighter than the sun in my life and I need to get to a place where I have nothing but happy feelings when I think about her!
The battle to stay positive is hard when all everyone talks about is negative. My friend was in a really bad accident and I was so happy and relieved that she was okay and her usual fun self! But it was almost wiped out when all everyone else could talk about was how much worse things could have been and how bad it was!!! And I just wanted to shake them and go but it's not! Now leave it! I really don't get the need to say stuff like that or think about it with that thought even!
Another big crazy thing that's going around like some epidemic is the whole "Do you think that person likes me?/Does that person still love me?". I am definitely am/have been a part of it and it is exhausting trying to figure out someone else's head! Sometimes, it's fun and distracting, but when you let it become your be all and end all, dude, you get whiny and repetitive and obsessive and not in a good way! I feel if you like/love that person, you should just do so and stop worrying about what the other person is feeling. If they like/love you, they'll let you know! We need to stop cribbing about stuff and just be happy that he/she called or texted and enjoy spending time with him/her.
I truly believe in the power of thoughts, vibes and energy. I believe that the more we want something, with just the thing that it makes us happy driving it, the Universe will give it to you! I believe that the more negative we are, the worse things can get.
I'm trying to write ten positive things about my day (since March) and it's getting easier to do so every day. The first time, I could find only 3, which was pathetic, because it showed me how warped my thinking was and how cloaked in negativity I was. Today, I can write at least 8 without thinking about it.
I feel like my mindset is changing, slowly, but I'm happy I'm working towards it. I need to start working with energy and try to figure out ways to focus mine. It's quite all over the place right now, so even daily life feels hectic. Now that I'm back at work, I feel like I can get into my routine again and get some order in this chaos!
I hope things get better as the days pass and happiness overtakes all that awful negativity!
Of late, there has been so much negativity going around, with so many people harping on the misfortunes that life hands them. It's so easy to fall into that trap and I've seen myself doing so, worrying about things that aren't working out, blaming people, cribbing and bitching and I've realised that I've missed out on being happy about the MANY good things in my life!
The other day, I visited my dog Gypsy at the cemetery and I wanted to scream and cry at life because she isn't in mine anymore and that it just wasn't fair. I became depressed and was in such a funk, trying to be cheerful and not go to my room and just hug my stuffed monkey and sulk. Yesterday, I spoke to my aunt about her and I realised that though she was sick, she passed away before she could feel any pain. She lived a happy life and was at her doggiest best when she left and I need to be happy that someone I loved so much went through life with maybe the regret of "I wish I had more Kaju Katli!" She is brighter than the sun in my life and I need to get to a place where I have nothing but happy feelings when I think about her!
The battle to stay positive is hard when all everyone talks about is negative. My friend was in a really bad accident and I was so happy and relieved that she was okay and her usual fun self! But it was almost wiped out when all everyone else could talk about was how much worse things could have been and how bad it was!!! And I just wanted to shake them and go but it's not! Now leave it! I really don't get the need to say stuff like that or think about it with that thought even!
Another big crazy thing that's going around like some epidemic is the whole "Do you think that person likes me?/Does that person still love me?". I am definitely am/have been a part of it and it is exhausting trying to figure out someone else's head! Sometimes, it's fun and distracting, but when you let it become your be all and end all, dude, you get whiny and repetitive and obsessive and not in a good way! I feel if you like/love that person, you should just do so and stop worrying about what the other person is feeling. If they like/love you, they'll let you know! We need to stop cribbing about stuff and just be happy that he/she called or texted and enjoy spending time with him/her.
I truly believe in the power of thoughts, vibes and energy. I believe that the more we want something, with just the thing that it makes us happy driving it, the Universe will give it to you! I believe that the more negative we are, the worse things can get.
I'm trying to write ten positive things about my day (since March) and it's getting easier to do so every day. The first time, I could find only 3, which was pathetic, because it showed me how warped my thinking was and how cloaked in negativity I was. Today, I can write at least 8 without thinking about it.
I feel like my mindset is changing, slowly, but I'm happy I'm working towards it. I need to start working with energy and try to figure out ways to focus mine. It's quite all over the place right now, so even daily life feels hectic. Now that I'm back at work, I feel like I can get into my routine again and get some order in this chaos!
I hope things get better as the days pass and happiness overtakes all that awful negativity!
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